I don't often talk about where I started undergrad, but my college career began at a small liberal arts school called Gordon College. It's a faith-based environment, and it's where I learned about worldview. Put simply, worldview is how we see the world. It's a collection of thoughts that frame our lives based on what we believe is truth.
In the last few years my worldview has transformed as I've been in different communities and read books and had experiences that have opened my heart. As a teenager and young adult I remember struggling with the term religion, like it was a taboo subject. When I was asked what my religion was I would beat around the bush and say, I have a relationship with Jesus. But as I've gotten older I've found myself unable to relate to my early theology. I'm not convinced that God only wants us to be in relationship with him, as much as he wants us to be in relationship him and with each other. I think he wants us to care for each other, and build communities that are fueled by vulnerability, generosity and compassion.
This shift in worldview has invited so many questions into my spirit. Questions about what my faith or religion is or what it looks like. Questions about how that should impact my day-to-day life and what I want to share with my children. Recently I've had questions about church. I wonder, why does church have to be a formal lecture by a person on a stage while I sit passively absorbing their wisdom? Why can't church be a few gathered, talking about God and studying his love, and learning how to love him and our neighbors better? I also wonder, when did prayer become this thing that we do with our eyes closed? My aunt wisely noted that if you share your prayer requests you've prayed. Wow. I love that. Verbalizing our lives, our needs and hopes, with one another in the presence of God. Who says that's not prayer?
I love this quote: "Whatever it is that you need to quit to pay attention to God... That's your best yes." Maybe we need to quit our traditional understandings of religious practice. Maybe we need to simplify. Maybe it's time to move from plugged in to acoustic and from lecture to conversation. Maybe we need to move from big to small, and maybe it's time to open our eyes.