I'm sitting in Logan International Airport, waiting to board a flight headed home. Finally. The last two weeks have been a whirlwind of travel and work, with a week in Mumbai, India, and a week in Boston, Ma. I'm exhausted but happy, I miss my Michael and the boys, and the routine of our day-to-day lives, but I'm also satisfied. I love being a wife, mom and professional. I feel grateful to work on the team I work on, in the organization I work for, and on days like today, I couldn't imagine myself doing anything else. But the toll of my absence on our family is not lost on me, and I'm overwhelmingly thankful that Michael is able to support me, by stepping up and playing single parent; and I'm thankful for my parents, that they live close to us and are able to help care for the boys.
But with this life Michael and I are building together, the challenge of work-life balance continues. And the division of time, energy and responsibilities proves to be an ongoing, fluid equation. I started this blog, three years ago, after a similar work trip, when I was a new mom and was struggling with my identity as a working mom. In this space I wanted to work through thoughts about how to be all of my identities—wife and parent, professional, and woman. And how to do them well. As I take a moment to slow down and reflect today, I'm still asking questions, like, how can I do all of it, and where do I sacrifice? Or when do I lean in, and when do I lean out?
This afternoon, my CEO thanked me, again, as he has done before, for my sacrifice, and for taking time away from my family to support our work. In that moment, as he was acknowledging my personal life, I felt so grateful to work for someone who appreciates my various roles. Because I am all of them. And truly, I think that each one makes me better at the other.