I realize that politics and religion can be polarizing and can also be taken very personally. The intention of this post is not to judge or offend or disrespect anyone who shares a different view, but rather to help me work through recent thoughts. Today I am sharing in the spirit of transparency, with the admission that I am on a journey, and I am confident that openness and vulnerability is what I need to continue to move forward.
I never questioned religion as a child, but as I grew older into a curious adult, I started to have questions. I had many questions that couldn't be answered and others that had answers that conflicted with the story I had always believed. And that made me wonder even more... how much of the story is reality and how much is crafted to motivate people to believe?
My thoughts today are that religion basically perpetuates the idea that we are broken and sinful—and that we need something else to save us. Enter God, grace or the sacrifice of animals, ourselves, or Jesus. Ultimately, the message is this: you do not belong and you are not good enough, but with religion you can be saved and redeemed.
As a woman who is striving for mental health and as a mother who is attempting to raise children with self-awareness and self-worth, I have issues with this concept. Throughout my life, religion has fueled an endless amount of self doubt, depression and anxiety, and sadness over how I was a failure and not good enough. But the truth is that I am good enough, I do belong, and I am welcome in this world.
Today, for me, love alone is enough.
I don't need mysterious miracles, something bigger or a creator with a master plan.
I don't need answers or explanations.
I don't need promises, rewards or eternal life.
All I need is today, all I need is us, all I need is love.
There are so many things I don't know. Each day I ask more questions and try to comprehend the answers, and then I ask more questions and then forgive myself for not having faith. Then I wonder and reflect, and I rest in the truth that I don't need to understand everything. I just need to trust myself—to trust this path, because this is my journey and today this is the right path for me. And more than anything, I wish for you and for me, that we will have more peace than unrest, and more love than hate.
An encouraging message from one of my favorite artists, Brian Andreas.